What Doesn’t Kill Me?


I saw this on Facebook today. It seems to fit the theme of the day.

I am thankful for encouraging people.

There are many people who could use some encouragement but as someone watching a struggle from the sidelines, it’s important to watch and weigh out what is the issues that brings a person to a certain place in their life. It doesn’t mean that as a person on the sidelines you are standing over someone saying , “You made wrong choices and you put yourself in this place so you have to dig yourself out.”  How can you love someone who is suffering and in trouble and yet not enable them to continue making poor choices. Every troubling instance in our lives should be the impetus for analyzing a situation and looking for the right choice.  None of us are entitled. We all need to pull ourselves up by the bootstraps and have great discernment in the decisions we must make. I am in trouble at any given moment and so this applies to me. I have been in trouble, made bad choices, and been on the other side watching a friend or neighbor trying to survive through a situation. I do a lot of praying, no matter which side I am on, for wisdom to know what is best to do. God is always there for you and it is important to constantly look and listen for what He is telling you.

Psalms 119:104-106

104 Through Thy precepts I get understanding; therefore I hate every false way.

105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

106 I have sworn an oath, and I will perform it, that I will keep Thy righteous judgments.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.

13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.

I’m very thankful for good friends and encouraging people in my life including my dearest friend, the Lord Jesus that is always there and never fails me.

I hope you all have the good things in your life that helps you wade through the debris and obstacles.

Talk to me about what things that bring you strength in the time of trouble. Talking about it is ,in itself, an encouragement to those in trouble. I salute you all who are in the battle for your life… physically, emotionally, financially, or spiritually.

Stop by any time as you are on your journey. I love your visits and I hope you find encouragement here.

Thanks,    Jan

 

What’s Up


Excuses for not writing:

1. I’m telling you, I have been in “Neverland” and don’t want to return.  Not!

2. I’ve been in a coma. Not!

3. I’ve had a lot going on in my life. This is true.

4. My family has had a lot going on. This is true

5. I’m depressed. Yes sometimes. Fearful. Yes sometimes….

OK. Now that the excuses are over… it’s time to revive myself.

I’ve been gathering seeds, giving computer lessons, doing resumes, helping others get jobs I can’t do anymore and jumping up and down because my grandson is home from Afghanistan!!  I have to do all this at my own pace … a little bit at a time. Work a little ….rest a little. These last few months have been overwhelming and that’s the real reason. It makes me exhausted in a way I can’t explain.

August brought a new challenge to one of the most painful things I’ve experienced. Something I never expected in a million years. One of my 6 children went to prison 32 months ago and was released in August so he came home to stay here for his re-entry program. I was so excited and so relieved to have him out and to have him here. The process of having him here is not easy .. mostly financially but not only financially since you need to adapt to another personality in the house.  It is hard to watch him conquering the things he must conquer The whole re-entry into “society”, you wouldn’t think it would be hard but it is. I see the struggle in his face. I know his mind is thinking about every little thing that he must remember and do. I know he must feel happiness, hope, but also fear. He seems determined and has a good attitude but he has some rough mountain terrain that he must climb. He is determined to not do anything that would place him back inside.

I know this is crazy….but it weighs on me. He hates our food. We eat so different and we don’t have the money to change it nor did we want to except that we want him to be eating healthy. We had what I call a free meal tonight. Friends gave us a large fish filet so we cooked that steamed in the oven with yummy seasoning on it and Darnell, my husband brought in small baby carrots from the garden and green beans so I steamed them. We live off the land as much as possible. I know there is nothing wrong with what I fixed but he didn’t eat and I’m not upset with him but it still pains me. We have what we have and no room to do something else. Darnell made popcorn later so he had a bowl of cereal and some popcorn so he isn’t starving. I just had to get that off my chest. What a little thing! This is the smallest of our problems. When I was growing up there was a saying: Life has a way of throwing a monkey wrench in the works! I’m glad that tomorrow is a new day………. onward and upward. Don’t sweat the small stuff. (it’s a MOM thing)

It is exciting he is here and I’m glad. We will deal with whatever come and cross the hurdles and make it to the goal.  I have faith…it just wavers every once in a while. 🙂

I know there are tons of families out there that have dealt with this. That’s why I want to share this very private part of my life with you.

Please tell me what you have experienced. I am fearful of the unknown. That’s normal… right? I know that right choices have to be the priority for him and there is no room for mistakes. I’ve heard how many end up back in because of a lapse in judgement. I pray that he will have a clear thought process and will not find himself in a bad position because of an impulse or wrong perspective or whatever makes us do the things we do. He is a man and I hope he has his feet firmly planted toward the future. I hope he will lean on God to give him the strength he needs for every day.

I have been in the valley and on the mountain. Up and down I go at any given moment right now. I’m usually not fragile and I need not to be right now. I pray and meditate on the things that keep me on an even keel. I know it will get easier. I have this thing I do when I’m struggling… I think about what I know for sure and focus on that. Do you do this when you are struggling with something?  The things I know for sure are:

I know that God is always with me.

I know that I’m not the only one who has experienced this.

I know that in God’s Word it says:

God has not given you the spirit of fear but of power, and of love, and of a strong mind.

II Timothy 2:17

He brought me also up out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon the rock, and established my goings. And He had put a new song in my mouth, even praise to our God: many shall see it and  fear and trust in the Lord

Psalms 40:2,3

I know that I am human so I have to put the fears behind me and trust in God who stays by my side every day. I am taking one breath at a time. That is all I can do and I’m glad I’m not walking alone.

Hope this is of help to someone out there who may be feeling something similar to what I’m feeling. Feel free to stop by any time and leave a comment. I’m praying for God’s help for us all.            Jan

About the Web Links on my Site:


About the Web Links on my Site:

7 – an experimental mutiny against excess

This was an experience, just thinking about this. I’m hoping for myself that it changes my perspective and keeps me balanced. Go to this site and check and see if this is a book you would like to read. Look at the responses of those who reviewed it. It’s good for me to shake up my thinking, chew on it a few days and look for where I might make changes. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/12171769-7 The site I have on the lower left is the blog of the author, Jen Hatmaker.

http://www.Medify.com

This site blew my socks off! For the last 10 years since I found out I was ill, I have tried to search for infomation left and right. I have found it so hard to find anything of substance. The site starts out with this statement: Medical Research is complex, the search for it shouldn’t have to be. I agree. They have enlisted a large number of medical research facilities and schools and testing facilities. On Medify, in one place you can look at everything that is happening with many conditions and diseases. As a disclaimer, I will say that I can’t vouch for them and I can’t say that they have all the information because I don’t have the resources to check everything out but enter and weigh for yourself and see what your opinion is of the site. I have to say even though it’s just my opinion, I am very excited to find such a place that I can go and look for information. I hope it is of help to some of you.

What does Spock say? Live well and Prosper!

Jan

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