It’s 2:30am and I’m up. My body is aching all over and I feel total exhaustion. I feel sad because I want to fill the needs of my family and do my part and I just don’t have the strength or endurance to do that the way it should be done.
My grand-children are so precious to me and I feel like I fail them over and over. It makes me sad. You need energy for children and I just don’t have any.
I am sick and tired. I guess I’ve given in to a little pity party. I know there are plenty of you out there that are in the same boat and understand completely. I don’t have pity parties very often and I need to pick myself up, brush of the dust, and keep movin’! I have a friend who says, “You have to cowboy-up!” That’s what I need to do, in a plan B kind of way.
The fact is that I am sick. With God‘s help, I’m still here long after everyone thought I would be gone. That’s good! With a focus on that’s good, I don’t feel equal to the tasks that have always been my responsibility. I wish it were different but it’s not. That doesn’t mean I give in or give up, but I have to allow myself to care for myself and do as much as I can and know when to stop. Have you heard that a good barber knows when to stop? It’s kinda like that at a much slower pace.
I always liked to hurdle myself into what lay in my path. It’s hard to slow down. I draw my strength from God everyday and He is faithful.
So. what do you do when you are sick and tired?
- Thank God for every day and every breath you take.
- Keep you focus on what is good and positive.
- As much as is possible, give yourself the nutrition to keep your body as strong as possible.
- Listen to your body and rest as much as it tells you it needs.
- When you fall off the horse, pick yourself up and get back in the saddle. Even William the Conqueror fell off his horse.
- Love everyday you are given.
- Do the best you can and don’t berate yourself for what you can’t do.
- Live so you have no regrets.
- Count your blessings.
- Be thankful for God, your family and friends because without those three things, you would really have a bad day!
OK! I’m back in the saddle. I need to remind myself from time to time of what my attitude needs to be. Hope what I’m experiencing helps someone else out there. We have to encourage one another.
I feel strangely calm after writing this. I think I’m ready to try again. How about you?
I love it when you visit so come again, Jan